| He did tell me on the phone, the night he confessed about the other women, that he understood that I was trying to help him all along. He said that he used to see me calling him so much as nagging, but realized that I was calling because I cared & that when someone doesn't call, to worry. He also told me, "Tell yourself that you were right." & that I'm a good person. So, basically he's telling me he's realized it but I'm not sure if he really has or if he was just having a moment. He told me that we are going through the same thing only I don't get drunk.
See, he used to spend the entire night out & come in at 5:30am (sometimes later) still drunk & treated me like crap. Then, once he sobered up, he would be nice again. Say he was sorry, took me out, bought me things or gave me money. So, I'm used to the being nice & then back to the normal again. Hearing him on the phone the other night, was no different to me.
If there was a guarantee that he would get get better & never do those nasty, sick, evil, twisted things again, then maybe I could take him back. But I hear too many stories of people who sober up for a while & then relapse all over again. I cannot live the rest of my life wondering if or when.
Becky |