[tkdan]

I have been going through some tough times. To start with I'm pretty sure things are over with me and my sponsor. He got into a confrontation with someone in the group and has not been back in two weeks. After he missed the first time that we were supposed to meet for step work I called him. He apologized for not making it and he told me he would definately be there the next appointed time. After he was a no show I called him again and he apoligized and said we would he would be there the next time. He did not show and I did not call, nor has he called as a courtesy to let me know he was not going to make it or to check on me or nothing. I feel like without being able to trust him to keep his word I can not have the trust in him I need to continue going through the steps with him.
This has been so frustrating. I've been slipping into that alocoholic way of thinking more and more lately. My life can be stressful enough without something like this going on. I know that I'm ultimately responsible for my sobriety and I can not use this as a reason to slip. I'm just not having a good quality sobriety lately. I keep telling myself I've come too far to do something stupid now.
I've only discussed this with my wife. While she is very supportive she can not relate very well. She just tells me maybe I should find another sponsor.
I have to trust that through my HP things will work out. It is hard. I have been focusing on the negative much more than I should.
Sorry to go on and on but I needed to get it out. I can always depend on the folks here for support and advice.
This situation does not change my faith in the program. I know AA is my best path to a lasting and quality sobriety. I don't expect everything to be perfect I just expect the good to outweigh the bad and it hasn't lately.