maybe you've hit on it Tay - you know you can't drink again, but you're not entirely happy with that ?
That's your call to make - I know I had to drink until I was ready to give it up and not feel resentful. I hope you're there
maybe it's perspective - for me, once I stopped looking at drinking/not drinking as
THE PROBLEM and started instead to look at me and work on whatever was lacking in me that I needed to fill with drink, the 'struggle' got a lot easier, and well...vanished...really
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