Prayers for strength, wisdom, and self-love going out to you today, Seacup. It's such a difficult place to be for a mother. Many here have had to call the police when their children have come to the house high or enraged. Please do not be afraid to do that, even if it is your son. You certainly wouldn't allow a stranger to bust in your door, and when they are in the throws of addiction, sometimes that is exactly what they are -- a stranger.