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So, glad I discovered the "women in recovery" part of this forum. I can definitely relate to most of the topics here.
I was seriously physically, emotionally, and sexually abused between the ages of 15 and 21 by my "high school sweetheart". Before then, I was always an A student, never touched drugs, alcohol, or cigs like many peers. I got away from him at age 21 after he tried to kill me. However, I didn't get away without some very bad habits in tow such as cocaine, meth, alcohol, and cigarettes. I dropped out of college and began making my living as an adult entertainer. Don't even want to mention the horrible things that led to. I've been using something or other since then and now 32 years old; well that was up until 2 days ago. I know that underlying causes of my addiction have to be dealt with, but just don't know if I can face it all. It's like I've been living on my own planet since then with my current husband as enabler; although a very sweet man.
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