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I know how your feeling all too well. I have destroyed everything because of my heavy drinking and ice problem. The remorse can and will make you go crazy if you let it take over, it has caused me to have breakdowns because of some of the s*** that ive done. Most of the so called "friends" that ive got completely burn me behind my back. I threw my phone in the trash. I am unemployed and isolated at the moment also. I know that it will get better if I just stay out of sight and not get hammered to try to kill my self pity and depression. Usually just makes everything alot worse. Ive been sober for 2 days and it is starting to loosen its grip, but I am having withdrawls. Im not really sure that you are skitzed, but I wouldnt smoke any more weed or drink excessively though. I hope everything works out for you. If possible try and keep yourself busy with something to keep your mind off of everything. I know it can be hard to when things are bad but it does help me alot.
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