but don't feel like my life's worth reclaiming or trying to save. Unemployed, broke, daughter's cold to me (thanks to the last year spent drinking), family is telling me to "keep my chin up" and "go out and get a job" and "stop being so negative"...
Am sick of all of it and sick of all of them too and just would like to sleep for the rest of my days. My only 'family' who loves me unconditionally is my two dogs. Everything else seems to be in the toilet. Overwhelming depression and anxiety. Too tired to fight it off today. Everything is going wrong, and what isn't going wrong isn't "going" anywhere anyway. What's the use??
Remember the Paul Newman movie Cool Hand Luke? Where George Kennedy is beating the crap out of him and all the other guys are saying "stay down Luke, stay down!" ... well I just want to stay down instead of always getting knocked down.