[Tazman53]

You know I was going to throw these thoughts/ponderings on to another thread and then decided since these thoughts/ponderings were not really keeping with the topic in the thread I would give them a seperate thread because it really is a seperate topic.

Steps..... my experience in my path to sobriety has been like a combination of very small and very large steps, even leaps of faith at times.

My very first and largest step was a moment of clarity where I saw death in my future if I continued to drink! (Bottom)

The next one was taking the action to get the ball rolling by making a doctors appointment.

I kept the appointment and made a major step and for the first time was perfectly honest with someone (the doctor) about how much I drank, for how long, and the hell I was going through due to my drinking.

Another huge step for me was following advice given to me, I went into detox.

Another huge step for me was following the suggestions in detox of going to at least 90 AA meetings in 90 days and getting a sponsor after I got out.

Getting a sponsor was a big step because for the first time in many years I was able to humble myself and ask someone for help and guidance.

Goint to meetings has been an accumulation of small steps, some of them resulting leaps of faith.

At about 2 months I quit taking steps, I was spinning my wheels and in danger of convincing myself that a drink may be okay!

At that point I took a huge leap in faith, I listened to the old timers when thay said thier experience had shown them that the key to long term happy sobriety was working the steps with a sponsor and told my sponsor I wanted to get to work on the steps and I did.

The Steps them selfs were a combination of small and large steps with a good sprinkling of leaps of faith.

My spiritual awakening has been a combination of small steps and sudden moments of clarity rocketing me further forward into that 4th dimension spoken of in the BB.

I continue on that journey today, working on taking steps forward into my sobriety, some small, some large, I sometimes get in a rut and feel as though I am spinning my wheels, then something happens and I start to take steps in the right direction again.

My spiritual awakening continues as time goes by, I did have a burning bush type of experience, but I had been awakening before that and as I continue to take daily steps even after that big moment I still continue to have more revealed to me.

Does you all experience in your walk into spiritual sobriety seem like little steps, mixed in with big steps and the occasional leap of faith?

Maybe I am just typing to read what I am thinking, kind of like talking to just hear myself talk! LOL