[Tazman53]

In the promises after step 9 it says that for some it comes slowly and for others quickly, but it will come for everyone who works for it.

LL I know right now this may seem an impossible task, but keep doing what you are doing in regards to meetings and keeping in touch with you sponsor, but just try to relax, find a place that is quiet and you feel safe and simply sit down and relax, focus on what is good in your life today, being sober is one of the things to be thankful for, another is simply being alive, add to that you have a a place that is quiet and you feel safe.

Slowly say the serenity prayer, but do more then just say it, take it apart and use it in your life at this moment, because this very moment is where you are at and is where you will always be, you can not exist in the past, as a result just accept the past for what it was, the future will remain in the future, simply accept that.

Focus in on the good around you, it can be found if you look for it, there is good in all of us, God does not waste his time, he does not make junk, each of us has a purpose he wishes us to serve if we will allow him to guide us.

A spiritual awakening in 10 days!!!!! I had mine some time after I had worked step 5 with my sponsor and even then it was simply a beginning, I know a few folks who had the obsession to drink lifted in no time, but very few, most folks I know did not have the obsession lifted until they were well into the steps and some that completed the steps and still had a minor obsession that dissappeared with time.

For most people, myself included a spiritual awakening is not a burning bush, nor a flash of light, it is a slow gradual awakening like waking up from a very long hard sleep.