[miss communicat]

As to the question of "why do we do what we do in life?"?:

Is it just be feel connected to others? No. The need for connection with others is not the goal in and of itself for me. The joining up with my fellows is to allow the creative principle of the higher power greater expression, through more than just my 1 avenue. Where there are fellows helping one another, there are more opportunities for healing and inspiration.

Is it for a deeper relationship to a HP? yes.

In the end,what are you really searching for? I am not searching for anything. I am enough.

is it physical,emotional or spiritual soberiety? no. sobriety is just the first precondition of my true nature. It is not the goal or reason for my life.

Is it to just be happy? no. Happiness is a moment. Then it is gone. I don't chase happiness anymore.

For me, the question is not "what will make me happy?" as much as it is "how can I best serve?"

my spiritual counselor has told me that we are each born with a purpose, or a way to serve humanity that is individually unique. The path is called, in this philosophy, our dharma, and it becomes the undercurrent or thread running throughout our entire life. No matter what we do or do not do, this driving inner principle will be felt, and we know it inside of ourselves.

For example, we are each born with unique skills, talents and inclinations which if we honor and cultivate, keep us true to our own nature. It is the discovery of these innate strengths which can support one in finding direction.

My counselor is also the person who told me early in my sobriety to "serve or suffer". I have to remember Who and What I am in service to. It aint me, thats for sure.

Sometimes I have feel it when I've veered far away from my path, or dharma. In times like this, everything was painful and unfulfilling. Relationships felt off, work was a drudgery and health waned.