I do not think that the Higher Power I’ve come to know makes any junk (or in this case a “Nothing”). Although I can’t help but wonder the same as everyone else as to what Step you are on, my curiosity goes further than that…
Didn’t anyone tell you that your freedom from the bondage of alcohol wasn’t going to come easy? Didn’t they tell you to keep coming back because a couple of visits to meetings wouldn’t fix it? Didn’t they warn you that you’d be breaking up with something that for a time was more important than life itself? Did anyone tell you that alcohol was cunning, baffling, powerful, and would lie to you, telling you that you would be “nothing” without it? Did they warn you that when you start getting all that crud from inside you there would be emptiness left in its place therefore you’d better have something better to fill it with? If they failed to do so, let me tell you that this is what can happen. This is why working with another alcoholic is advisable… so that you don’t have to suffer so badly and feel so alone.
Take heart, LL. This too shall pass if you do a few simple things…Seek a relationship with a Power Greater Than Yourself, clean house, and work with others. Simple…but not easy!
