| What do you do to be of service to others?
What do you do to be of service to others, in and outside of meetings? Besides some service in AA, I am trying to be of service everywhere. Buying people coffees, and trying and be more pleasant to others. It's not much, but it's a start. Someone told me I indulge in self pity and am negative and self-centered, and that to change this I need to learn to be of service to people everywhere. I really struggle with this, but want to change it. I am beginning to wonder if I am constitutionally incapable of being honest with myself, because I feel like I just have resentments against people for nothing these days. Is self-hate a form of self pity? Because I do this too. I wake up in the morning and I hate life/family/people and myself for feeling this way, and just wish it would all go away. I struggle with being of service to my family especially. We don't talk, and I feel like there is nothing to talk about, so we really don't have much to do with each other on an emotional level. Suggestions?
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