My sincere thanks to everyone who responded. After I posted, but before I came back, I thought to myself, "How embarrassing - I had these concerning thoughts weeks ago. I shouldn't have even said anything." But then I had to tell myself, "Get off this shame spiral before it starts, and just look to see what the nice SR people had to say."
And what I got was a direct response to what I was thinking:
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Originally Posted by ksos  No matter how "brief" or even unimportant they may seem now, this remains a serious concern. |
Thank you for your concern, and I want to confirm that I have NEVER made any such plans. My concern was with the fact that the thoughts popped into my head in the first place, even though I was able to recognize within minutes that I didn't have to believe what I was thinking about myself.
Thank you, though, for saying that it's okay to call it an emergency if I do feel scared. My own thoughts don't have to scare me if I know that my thoughts will not determine my actions. I will have your words in my head now.
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Originally Posted by historyteach Have you considered one to one therapy? Although group therapy is fine for many things, I think you may get benefit from personalized therapy too. Just a thought. |
I have. But then I feel guilty - I have people who care about me, many ACA meetings, a therapy group run by someone I like, and even couples therapy (not to mention a boyfriend willing to go with me). But I also feel like I need someone to look me in the eye and directly challenge my thinking. Like I need to say more than what there is room to say in a group. Like my boyfriend, bless his heart, is bearing too great a burden when he still has to reassure me (though I have had the opportunity to take care of him as well, and don't see it as a burden - so that should tell me something).
Anyway, maybe I will do that - one-on-one, that is - since no one on here has yet told me that I'm already getting too much help
