[aldo1980]

Exactly 1 year ago I quit Xanax, cold turkey, after it had cost me my relationship with my girl-friend and had "helped" me do some crazy illegal behavior, which got me in trouble.
I was unawear of this forum at the time and I kept a journal of my detox which I've just consulted. For the benifit of others I'd like to share this info:

[P.S: this is not intended as a guide to quitting Xanax. I've been on and off Xanax ever since]

2007/03/13 Last abusive dose of Xanax.

2007/03/14 Cried for last 3 days [my girl-friend had left me] untill exhaustion.

2007/03/15 Withdrawl continues. Emotions stable. Physically bad: no appitite; violent tremors; nausea; heart pounding; can't breath; audio hallucinations; headache; sensibility towards changes of [room] tempreture; difficulty talking [muscular stress]; abdominal cramps; muscle pains; I go to pharmacy looking for an anti-withdrawl - they tell me only Xanax would make me feal better. I resist.

2007/03/16 Withdrawl continues. I go to doc in afternoon. In the evening i am psyically exhausted.

2007/03/17 Slept 10 hours straight last night. Withdrawl is minimum. I eat first 2 meals in 3 days.

2007/03/18 Withdrawl is over. Very irritable.

2007/03/19 Appointment with neuro-psychiatrist he says find a job and new girl-friends [!]. He says "yes" to Xanax for social and anxiety issues. Suggests seeing a shink [i didn't]. Anxiety comes back bad in the afternoon. I see doc. He says "0,50mg in the am; 0,50mg in the pm; 1mg at nighttime". I weight 66kg [I've almost always usually fluctuated between 68kg and 75kg - eventually last year, if i remember correctly, i was down to 64kg]

2007/03/20 Very anxious as soon as I wake up. 0,25mg in the am/0,25 pm/0,50 night [i had permission from the doc - i thought it would have been ok!]

2007/03/21 0,25mg/0,50/0,50 [morning/afternoon/evening - hitherto]

2007/03/22 0,25/0,50/0,25 social event before dinner/0,50 after social event

2007/03/23 0,25/0,50/0,50/0,50 panic middle of the night.

2007/03/24 0,25/0,50/0,25

2007/03/25 0,25/0,50/0,50

2007/03/26 0,25/0,50/0,25

2007/03/27 0,25/zero/0,50

2007/03/28 0,25/0,25/0,50

2007/03/29 same as above

2007/03/30 same

2007/04/01 same + insomnia

2007/04/02 0,25/0,25/0,50

2007/04/03 0,50/0,25/0,25

2007/04/04 0,25/0,25/0,50

2007/04/05 0,25/0,25/0,50 no smoking cigarettes

2007/04/06 same as above

2007/04/07 0,25/zero/0,50 10 cigarettes

2007/04/08 0,25/0,25/0,50 20 ciggys [!]

2007/04/09 0,25/0,50/1,00 no ciggys

2007/04/10 0,25/0,25/0,50 smoking cigarettes as i used to

2007/04/11 0,25/0,50/0,50

2007/04/12 0,25/0,50/1,00 + 1mg EN [briotazolam, if i remember correctly. not prescribbed. orignally prescribbed a few years ago for muscular stress, if i remember correctly. which i then abused too]

2007/04/13 0,25/0,25/1,00 [notice how i stared saving up my prescribed doseages so i could get stoned at nighttime]

2007/04/14 0,25/0,25/0,50

2007/04/15 0,25/zero/0,50 + 2mg EN

2007/04/16 0,25/0,25/0,50 + 1mg EN

2007/04/17 0,25/zero/1,00 + 1mg EN

2007/04/19 0,25/0,25/1,00

2007/04/20 0,25/1,50/1,00 + 3mg EN [from here on it just gets worse]

2007/04/21 0,25/0,75/1,00 + 3mg EN

2007/04/22 1,00 + 1mg EN/2mg EN/1mg Xanax/1mg EN/1,50 Xanax/2mg EN [it looks like i was taking them like candy from here on because the morning/afternoon/evening becomes out of sync. From here things just get worser and worser which I will not publish as this is not intended as a "how to abuse Xanax" guide. All I can say is my consumption from here on returned to what it was before i attempted to wuit and within less than a week from here i fell off the alcohol wagon, after being 7 and half years sober.

Bad medications. Stay away from. Get yourself help NOW.