Friends,
I've been feeling not too good for some days now. Last week I was very anxious so I had a Xanax relapse (only 10mg in 2 or 3 days).
As some of you know I was dependant on Xanax, which I abused (sometimes up to 15 maybe 20mg a day), for a few years.
The thing is I had an alcohol slip on saturday and still this week (Wensday today) I'm feeling terrible. I'm anxious all the time, plus I have panic attacks and I'm fearing terrible events that I believe (although rationally they seem unlikly to happen) will happen in the future to me.
I was begining to think I was loosing my mind and/or that I actually was going to die. I was believeing that untill I came on the internet and did a search. I'be been so concearned with how I slipped with the alcohol during the past few days that I'd overlooked my Xanax relapse.
Is it possible that after a year I've stopped taking Xanax daily and perhaps 5 months I've stopped taking it occasionally that just after having taken it for just a few days I'd already become so addicted again (I know: once an addict always an addict) that I'm having to go through withdrawl from it again?
I hate this drug.
