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***nandm*** · 03-16-2008, 03:40 PM

Chapter 11
A Vision For You

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1 Years ago, in 1935, one of our number made a journey to a certain western city. 2 From a business standpoint, his trip came off badly. 3 Had he been successful in his enterprise, he would have been set on his feet financially which, at the time, seemed vitally important. 4 But his venture would up in a law suit and bogged down completely. 5 The proceeding was shot through with much hard feeling and controversy.

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1 Bitterly discouraged, he found himself in a strange place, discredited and almost broke. 2 Still physically weak, and sober but a few months, he saw that his predicament was dangerous. 3 He wanted so much to talk with someone, but whom?

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1 One dismal afternoon he paced a hotel lobby wondering how his bill was to be paid. 2 At the end of the room stood a glass covered directory of local churches. 3 Down the lobby a door opened into an attractive bar. 4 He could see the gay crowd inside. 5 In there he would find companionship and release. 6 Unless he took some drinks, he might not have the courage to scrape an acquaintance and would have a lonely week-end.

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1 Of course he couldn't drink, but why not sit hopefully at a table, a bottle of ginger ale before him? 2After all, had he not been sober six months now? 3 Perhaps he could handle, say, three drinks -- no more! 4Fear gripped him. 5 He was on thin ice. 6 Again it was the old, insidious insanity -- that first drink. 7 With a shiver, he turned away and walked down the lobby to the church directory. 8 Music and gay chatter still floated to him from the bar.

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1 But what about his responsibilities -- his family and the men who would die because they would not know how to get well, ah -- yes, those other alcoholics? 2 There must be many such in this town. 3 He would phone a clergyman. 4 His sanity returned and he thanked God. 5 Selecting a church at random from the directory, he stepped into a booth and lifted the receiver.

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1 His call to the clergyman led him presently to a certain resident of the town, who, though formerly able and respected, was then nearing the nadir of alcoholic despair. 2 It was the usual situation; home in jeopardy, wife ill, children distracted, bills in arrears and standing damaged. 3 He had a desperate desire to stop, but saw no way out, for he had earnestly tried many avenues of escape. 4 Painfully aware of being somehow abnormal, the man did not fully realize what it meant to be alcoholic. [NOTE: This refers to Bill's first visit with Dr. Bob. These men later became co-founders of A.A. Bill's story opens the text of this book; Dr. Bob's heads the Story Section.]

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1 When our friend related his experience, the man agreed that no amount of will power he might muster could stop his drinking for long. 2 A spiritual experience, he conceded, was absolutely necessary, but the price seemed high upon the basis suggested. 3 He told how he lived in constant worry about those who might find out about his alcoholism. 4 He had, of course, the familiar alcoholic obsession that few knew of his drinking. 5 Why, he argued, should he lose the remainder of his business, only to bring still more suffering to his family by foolishly admitting his plight to people from whom he made his livelihood? 6 He would do anything, he said, but that.

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1 Being intrigued, however, he invited our friend to his home. 2 Some time later, and just as he thought he was getting control of his liquor situation, he went on a roaring bender. 3 For him, this was the spree that ended all sprees. 4 He saw that he would have to face his problems squarely that God might give him mastery.

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1 One morning he took the bull by the horns and set out to tell those he feared what his trouble had been. 2He found himself surprisingly well received, and learned that many knew of his drinking. 3 Stepping into his car, he made the rounds of people he had hurt. 4 He trembled as he went about, for this might mean ruin, particularly to a person in his line of business.

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1 At midnight he came home exhausted, but very happy. 2 He has not had a drink since. 3 As we shall see, he now means a great deal to his community, and the major liabilities of thirty years of hard drinking have been repaired in four.

03-16-2008, 03:40 PM	#4 (permalink)
*nandm* Life the gift of recovery! Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Home is where the heart is Posts: 6,580	First edition reference paragraphs 11-20 Chapter 11 A Vision For You Paragraph 11 1 Years ago, in 1935, one of our number made a journey to a certain western city. 2 From a business standpoint, his trip came off badly. 3 Had he been successful in his enterprise, he would have been set on his feet financially which, at the time, seemed vitally important. 4 But his venture would up in a law suit and bogged down completely. 5 The proceeding was shot through with much hard feeling and controversy. Paragraph 12 1 Bitterly discouraged, he found himself in a strange place, discredited and almost broke. 2 Still physically weak, and sober but a few months, he saw that his predicament was dangerous. 3 He wanted so much to talk with someone, but whom? Paragraph 13 1 One dismal afternoon he paced a hotel lobby wondering how his bill was to be paid. 2 At the end of the room stood a glass covered directory of local churches. 3 Down the lobby a door opened into an attractive bar. 4 He could see the gay crowd inside. 5 In there he would find companionship and release. 6 Unless he took some drinks, he might not have the courage to scrape an acquaintance and would have a lonely week-end. Paragraph 14 1 Of course he couldn't drink, but why not sit hopefully at a table, a bottle of ginger ale before him? 2After all, had he not been sober six months now? 3 Perhaps he could handle, say, three drinks -- no more! 4Fear gripped him. 5 He was on thin ice. 6 Again it was the old, insidious insanity -- that first drink. 7 With a shiver, he turned away and walked down the lobby to the church directory. 8 Music and gay chatter still floated to him from the bar. Paragraph 15 1 But what about his responsibilities -- his family and the men who would die because they would not know how to get well, ah -- yes, those other alcoholics? 2 There must be many such in this town. 3 He would phone a clergyman. 4 His sanity returned and he thanked God. 5 Selecting a church at random from the directory, he stepped into a booth and lifted the receiver. Paragraph 16 1 His call to the clergyman led him presently to a certain resident of the town, who, though formerly able and respected, was then nearing the nadir of alcoholic despair. 2 It was the usual situation; home in jeopardy, wife ill, children distracted, bills in arrears and standing damaged. 3 He had a desperate desire to stop, but saw no way out, for he had earnestly tried many avenues of escape. 4 Painfully aware of being somehow abnormal, the man did not fully realize what it meant to be alcoholic. [NOTE: This refers to Bill's first visit with Dr. Bob. These men later became co-founders of A.A. Bill's story opens the text of this book; Dr. Bob's heads the Story Section.] Paragraph 17 1 When our friend related his experience, the man agreed that no amount of will power he might muster could stop his drinking for long. 2 A spiritual experience, he conceded, was absolutely necessary, but the price seemed high upon the basis suggested. 3 He told how he lived in constant worry about those who might find out about his alcoholism. 4 He had, of course, the familiar alcoholic obsession that few knew of his drinking. 5 Why, he argued, should he lose the remainder of his business, only to bring still more suffering to his family by foolishly admitting his plight to people from whom he made his livelihood? 6 He would do anything, he said, but that. Paragraph 18 1 Being intrigued, however, he invited our friend to his home. 2 Some time later, and just as he thought he was getting control of his liquor situation, he went on a roaring bender. 3 For him, this was the spree that ended all sprees. 4 He saw that he would have to face his problems squarely that God might give him mastery. Paragraph 19 1 One morning he took the bull by the horns and set out to tell those he feared what his trouble had been. 2He found himself surprisingly well received, and learned that many knew of his drinking. 3 Stepping into his car, he made the rounds of people he had hurt. 4 He trembled as he went about, for this might mean ruin, particularly to a person in his line of business. Paragraph 20 1 At midnight he came home exhausted, but very happy. 2 He has not had a drink since. 3 As we shall see, he now means a great deal to his community, and the major liabilities of thirty years of hard drinking have been repaired in four. __________________ NOTE: All BB quotes are from the 1st Edition of the Big Book Depression is not a sign of weakness. It is a sign of being too strong for too long.