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dotcom · 12-03-2003, 10:59 PM

hi lilya

i can relate to that one. i have been living in fear of letting everyone but myself down. whatever i say has to be validated by someone or else its nothing.

while i was on the streets of course people could bully me into giving them whatever they wanted, i was so concerned with what they thought of me. my thinking has been so screwed up, its hard to imagine.

i lived in fear of my fathers wrath up until i was 18. now, i sometimes cower, but other times i tell him to shush and i give him a piece of my mind. which isnt polite, but give him an inch and he will run a mile. its all codependency with him.

ive been really trying to feel mature. i know i can act silly, but for the most part, people have said what a nice young woman ive become. i have absolutely no self confidence at the moment.

dotcom

12-03-2003, 10:59 PM	#4 (permalink)
dotcom Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: laughing at my avatar Posts: 1,636	hi lilya i can relate to that one. i have been living in fear of letting everyone but myself down. whatever i say has to be validated by someone or else its nothing. while i was on the streets of course people could bully me into giving them whatever they wanted, i was so concerned with what they thought of me. my thinking has been so screwed up, its hard to imagine. i lived in fear of my fathers wrath up until i was 18. now, i sometimes cower, but other times i tell him to shush and i give him a piece of my mind. which isnt polite, but give him an inch and he will run a mile. its all codependency with him. ive been really trying to feel mature. i know i can act silly, but for the most part, people have said what a nice young woman ive become. i have absolutely no self confidence at the moment. dotcom __________________ probably not.