Abuse what a complecated topic it is 4'r me I guess I just wen't on supressing every-vent of my abusive stage's of life I never like to talk about it cause since the age of 14,yrs. old I new to do one thing and got good at it run from my own demon's that one to hunt u went u list expected and I ran and hide it 4'r 22,yr's of my life on drug's& alcohol& partyin'g just so I won't feel or think stupid it was to think I could run from such scruchiating event I finally realice I wasn't runnin'g from my pass oh demon's I was running away from me right now where I'am at now in recovery I thank GOD 4r aloudwing me to come to that place of surrender&understanding cause when I'cant understand a certain task or event that had occur weather in the pass or present I could b my own worst enemmy I will rebel I see that's was so go about recovery it lets u see ur triger's&monsters before they come I was abuse by my boilogical mom verbally,physically,mentally,emotionally&to tpo it of not only her but her 20,000000million boy-friend's she had every week a different man&so u could Imagine what they did to me the think that shock me is they never hit me but I will ratter them hit me than to do what they did they malestsd me, then my aunt's uncle and the my mom gave me up I havent seen that beast of amom over 29,yr's of my existing life at time's I fight alot of anger surfece's up but thank GOD 4R SR I could just take it one-day at atime I don't have to run no more