It is scary how similar our stories are. I feel for you and the situation that you are in. Being lied to is such a hard thing to get over. A couple of days ago my parents asked me why I was not mad about this whole thing. It's funny because anger doesnt seem like it will get me or my husband anywhere. He has admitted to his deceptions, I am not angry, but I feel like I am walking on thin ice, just hoping to make it across. I hope this is not too personal to ask, but how do you deal with the lies? When he first told me, I felt like I didnt want to let him out of my sight, how do you get over that feeling? I am sick for you dealing with this again.....the dreaded relapse. Take care of yourself and please keep me posted because it seems like you and I have very similar stories, so we should lean on each other.