Hi, moving on;
And welcome!
It's important you speak to your doctor honestly about what's going on. Yes, it's difficult. But, in the end, that's the only way that you will feel better.
I hope your medical issues can get cleared up quickly.
When I say things I'm sorry about later to my son, I speak to him and clear it up. I'm human. I make mistakes. It's my job to clean up my side of the street. And it makes for a better relationship in the long run.
Shalom!