... the Daily ditty ... and also to the TOPAMAX thread ...
I'm starting week four and I've noticed a few things - I want to post about here, in hopes others could relate?
One - I've experienced a MARKED increase in TYPOS ... Im calling it a TOPA-TYPO syndrome. I see in the paperwork about dyslexia ... an that it will pass or level out... sux to be a witer right about now.
(witer? who am I allasudden?
Elmer Fudd?
see what I mean WRITER for craps sake!)
I was never good at going back to check my work to begin with but now ...
I'm talkin' ... damn. So I apologize.
Second - Dolls was just talking about anxiety - I wanted to share about that -
I have had some manic stuff going on - noticed by my "person' ... and now frequently commented on by my 'person' ... I mentioned it to my Counsellor - who found that singular and interesting - so there's some talk about just dropping the topamax and getting me back on my old ADHD medication. I posted about that on the 'last to know' thread.
HOWEVER -
the TOPAMAX ...
makes for an anxious tummy.
Well, it makes for a sensation in the tummy ... that TRANSLATES to the feeling when we were kids that 'oooo I'm in trouble' feeling.
WHich the brain interprets as anxiety.
I'm talking milliseconds to happen, here.
When in reality - it's just chems releasing.
When we have TIME to stop and think of it as that - the 'feeling' ...
goes away. (impending doom, in trouble...sky is falling... all that)
And all is well.
When we get caught up in daily crap though - work, deadlines,
GUESTS at a HOTER that should be asleep for craps sake ...
we don't GET the time to stop and remind the tummy of that.
Last Saturday -
I didn't leave my house.
Nothing terrible -0i just ... had nowhere to go.
But I had a fullblown anxiety attack.
Wassamatter? WhadI do? DidI say something?> OMG?
Kind of thing.
I had to actually STOP WHat I was doing...
and tell myself -
dumbs$$ -
you havn't spoken to a single person all day.
you cou.nd't have said anything.
you have BEEN anywhere.
you couldn't have DONE anything.
your stomach is in knots
because you're on a new MEDICATION
and you haven't EATEN today.
maybe you shoud go into the kitchen hand have a cracker.
so I did.
and it went away.
and ... I thought about these threads.
so I thought I'd throw this out there.
see what happens.
Love to all - have a great weekend.
barb
