[jen960]

I find myself flailing around at the moment. I left my AH 3 months ago and we are now living countries apart. I have got a great job, place to live and am back with my family and friends. I am doing all the right things! I find myself missing AH and wishing things had turned out differently. He still is not in a recovery program but of course wants me to go back and everything will be different. Words words words! I said that he would have to be in a recovery program and that he would have to come and visit us(we have a year old baby) if we were ever to have a future. He is not prepared to come here and says he has learnt from his mistakes etc. I guess that I just get so frustrated that he can't get things together. I know that I just have to move on but it is so hard!!!!