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Me being the tried and true Taurus that I am, I too had difficulty with the 'we' part of this thing.
I hope you don't mind me sharing a now humorous story (wasn't so funny the day it happened) regarding my ego of astronomical proportions early in recovery.
I was attending all 4 meetings a week that we had available in my small town. I was pretty much taking the body to meetings in the hopes that the mind would eventually follow!
Somewhere around my 9 month mark I got upset with someone else in AA. I have no idea who it was, or what I was mad about, but by the time I was finished rolling that around in my pea brain I had developed a HUGE resentment against the entire AA group that day.
"Hmph! I'll show those butt heads. I just won't go to AA tonight and they will surely notice my glaring absence and come to my door, begging me to please come back and forgive them!"
The longer I thought about it, the more grandiose my thinking became until I had everyone screeching up in their cars to my house, marching up to my porch bearing a cake as a sign of repentance, and getting on their knees to ask my forgiveness! :rof
8 pm came, and I sat watching the clock. Surely someone would be showing up by 8:05!
Needless to say, when no one showed up at all, the meeting was long over, and there I sat in my house, I finally realized I had accomplished nothing more than cheating myself out of an hour of good fellowship. I ate some humble pie that night!
Thankfully my ego has deflated a bit over the years, and it is much easier to view it as a 'we' thing.
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