| Fearing Relapse
I was diagnosed schizophrenia / schizo / affective nearly 15 years ago along with depression/post traumatic stress syndrome and anxiety....i have spent a total of 6 to 7 months in hospital over the years ...the last time being 3 years ago.Since then i have come a long way and only been on an anti depressant the last 2 years .A year ago i was diagnosed with a rare blood disease that explains some of the trouble i have been having (being very tired / fatigued and sweating lots)My doctor told me i needed to loose some weight so i decided a change was needed and decided to stop taking my anti depressants .To help with the withdrawal i tried some pot and have started smoking it again after not being on it for 10 years...its only been a few weeks but i already feel its got the better of me and i am getting worried.My family who have been through a lot with me would be very angry if they were to find out i would be kicked out.I have a girlfriend that lives 2 hours away in the city and although she would be angry as well i think she would let me stay at her place while i get help.....the only way i have of getting to the doctors where i am is if my family takes me and i dont want them to know i have a problem
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