Paulos,
Do you belong to an autism support group? We don't have one here, but, I do know there's one on
Revolution Health - Revolution Health
Of course, I'm not telling you to leave SR!!! LOL! I just thought you might get some support from people who share the same problem of autism as you do there. And share the problem of alcoholism here.
And can you tell us a bit about your illness? I'd like to know more.
Shalom!