Congratulations on 14 days!!!
Please believe me; you *are* smart enough for life, providing you take it one day at a time.
Are you going to meetings? Do you have a sponsor to help you with the steps? They will help you improve your life, day by day.
Remember to do something each day physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually for yourself. That's how we take care of ourselves. And if things continue to look negative, perhaps you will want to see your doctor and tell him/her how your feeling. SOmetimes, it takes medication to help us over the hump.
I wish you the best, and hope you continue on your wonderful path. It will lead to happiness.
Shalom!