[Ann]

Step 6 was another of those steps that seemed so simple but indeed were more complex than I had anticipated.

Steps 1, 2 and 3 were my "surrender and find faith" steps, and steps 4 and 5 were about identifying my personal feelings and reasons for them. These steps brought me to a point where I had to decide if I wanted to continue living the life I had been living or if I really really wanted to change and begin to live differently and better. It was a point where I KNEW better now, where I KNEW that I could not control anyone else's behaviour, and where I KNEW that I desperately wanted to live in peace and find happiness again.

Shaking my old behaviour, ridding myself of my defects of character and the obsessive "need" to run the world was not going to be easy and Step 6 was where I got to closely examine my "garbage" and decide whether to take it to the curb and pray for the Higher Garbage Man to take away what I no longer wanted or needed.

For me, I took a deep breath and decided God could restore me to sanity (Step 2) only if I were willing to change.

Toward the end of working my Step 6, I felt a relief combined with a new hope that if I were willing to give up my old ways, God would help me get rid of them. I had no idea where that would lead me, I had no idea what might lie ahead, but I had reached a point of faith where I KNEW that where I was going could not be any worse than where I had been and I KNEW that I was ready.

Thanks for posting these, Cats, it's good for me to review my own steps and give thought to what areas still need work.

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