Hi Everyone!
Well ...
I've said since the beginning - that nothing - absolutely nothing can come between be and my recovery -
damned if my JOB hasn't.
And has been ... for months now.
So I keep quitting - and they keep talking me into coming back but this last time - I'm actively seeking other arrangements now ... I'm trying to shut up and see where The Infinite is pointing.
So any spare prayers y'all have dangling around,
if you could send 'em my way - I'd appreciate it.
Meanwhile, I will only be working enough hours here to get bills paid while I actively seek something ANYTHING else. I had a very bad experience with the General manager here during this illness, and sat down with the GM for a far more honest conversation than I think she was prepared for.
*such can be the drawbacks of a twelve step program I suppose*
Because she could not indimidate me. She did try.
You will lose your job, *barb*
I was looking for a job when I got here ...
The truth was the truth ... and that, as they say ...
was that.
I am also changing sponsors, I'm in a ...
*pause*
you know -
I don't know
what the hell I'm in -
I've just reached a part/phase/something within
myself/healing/growth/recovery
that I need a sponsor who is my more own age/life experience is all. My previous sponsor, has been my one and only and who I still love deeply and will remain very close to. But we agree that I'm just in a place where I am being asked by The Infinite to learn aspects of life that she is simply not prepared to guide - to nurture; care for, and honor the Self ... and that .. the learning and guiding how to ... must be done by someone more ...
mature chronologically. And by someone who actually has experienced it for themselves. My sponsor has little more direct experience with that kind of mothering than I do.
Headin toward a whole new horizon.
Giddyap.
Thanks.
