[serenityqueen]

Here's a response from the other side.

I was in a serious, or so I thought, relationship when I got clean and sober. I suddenly realized that I was not in love with this man after all. I fell in love with the party that came with him. Once I left the party, there was nothing.

I realized that he did not give me love, respect or even treat me like a human being. At that time in my life I suppose the only thing that I thought was important in a relationship was having someone who would support my habit. I thought that love meant someone who brought me the best dope out there. How sick is that?

I've been in Recovery for a little over 2 1/2 years and I haven't been in a relationship as of yet. I am enjoying this time learning who I am, learning about myself. People ask me at times, "Aren't you lonely?" Not at all. I'm discovering me!