[mayorob1]

Hi everyone,

I am posting this after drinking 4 beers,

I have had a very stressful couple of weeks, my job has been very demanding, my home life has been over loaded. Mentally and physically.

My house is for sale, my dog was in to be fixed, my wife's office asked me to move all there computers and telephones equipment (that's a skill I have)

I left my wife's office today feeling very frustrated, all afternoon having my old thoughts about working hard and rewarding myself with beer on the way home.

Many times I talked myself out of going to the beer store all afternoon, but the whole process was so frustrating and I just am so tired from working so many hours at work. ( I know that I have preached about just saying no and I am sorry for that)

I drove by the beer store three times. finally I stopped, actually I went to the liquor store because beer is less expensive there. I bought 4 beers and headed home. Because I didn't want my son to see me drink I stopped around the corner from my house ( I live in the country) and drank the beer

I sat there and listened to my radio and had so many feelings go through my head, I drank the first beer and thought this is so wrong, but the old feelings won and I drank the second. That's when I knew I had made a mistake.

At that point I decided that this was only going to happen today, that I was going to get back on my goal and move on, I listen to the music and drank the other two beers. And went home.

My wife was not happy with me but after I explained what was going on in my head she understood and was happy that I just drank 4 beers and came home.

I am really sorry guys, I have let you down.

I don't think I would have made it this far without you,

I am back on day one,

Love and hugs

Rob