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Growing · 02-22-2008, 11:36 AM

I need some support today. Hope you don't mind a vent:

Since my self-described codie "slip" that landed me back in the rooms of 12steps...I am seeing myself for what feels like the first time...and it is ugly..most days. I am not beating myself up...I am just being honest. I need to admit this.

I remember when I did my first "Blueprint for Progress"...it scared the total cr*p out of me. I am back to that space...except...I don't even have the denial I had back then to fall back on! Which is good...

So...I will probably be working on 4step work for a while.....I just need to hear that I will make it through this...it is blinding right now with the light my HP is shining on my condition...not just on SR but in my daily life as a whole...my eyes haven't adjusted yet.

So I just need care and support....and asking for it is huge for me, today.

Please be gentle....LOL

02-22-2008, 11:36 AM	#1 (permalink)
Growing Progress Not Perfection Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: "Further up and further in!"---C.S. Lewis Posts: 565 Blog Entries: 3	Support please..4th step. I need some support today. Hope you don't mind a vent: Since my self-described codie "slip" that landed me back in the rooms of 12steps...I am seeing myself for what feels like the first time...and it is ugly..most days. I am not beating myself up...I am just being honest. I need to admit this. I remember when I did my first "Blueprint for Progress"...it scared the total crp out of me. I am back to that space...except...I don't even have the denial I had back then to fall back on! Which is good... So...I will probably be working on 4step work for a while.....I just need to hear that I will make it through this...it is blinding right now with the light my HP is shining on my condition...not just on SR but in my daily life as a whole...my eyes haven't adjusted yet. So I just need care and support....and asking for it is huge for me, today. Please be gentle....LOL __________________ Take what you like and leave the rest. "I am only just returned to a sense of real wonder about me..."---George Eliot "The term is over: the holidays have begun. The dream is ended: this is the morning." The Last Battle* by C.S. Lewis Have you read my blog?