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GailJ · 02-20-2008, 09:03 PM

With my ex the highs could be anything rage, boredom, depression, anxiety, even happiness,
I think they should reword the term as emotional peaks far out the socially accepted norm. The manic episodes and rapid cycling usually brings on the white rages, delusions, paranoia, and obsessive compusions to do what one normally would never do.

Simply the highs are extended periods of a certain emotion which can change/swing abrubtly and without warning or reason into another extended period of another emotion. One p-doc explained it to me that my ex when rapid cycling his brain was processing ten times faster than a normal brain. Could last hours, days, weeks, even months, there is no way to predict when an episode will hit or for how long it will last.

To him (my ex) it was normal, and the rest of the world was screwed up. to the rest, his family, friends and employers, it was and still is just plain frightening and dangerous for him and those closest to him.

He (my ex still denies his BP) thinks he has only ever had one manic episode, yet I lived through at least four severe episodes with him and he has had at least three more since I divorced him 15yrs ago. He is in the middle of one right now. Very paranoid and seeing conspiracies and spys everywhere, and was suicidal within the past two weeks. It scares me as one of my sons still lives with him and he is capable of being very violent and abusive verbally and pysically when in an episode. My son knows my door is open if he needs it. Anyway thats off point and just letting you know my two cents worth.

If you are finally feeling better hippy maybe the meds are doing their job finally, one thing many of us do is get off the meds as soon as we feel better. Usually in extream depression and BP it will inevitably lead to a relapse to get off to quickly. Stick with them Hippy and focus on getting back into a healthy lifestyle. It took a long time for you to find meds that do work for you. Even if it's a pain in the but remembering to take them and on time.

You sound really good and I'm glad to see it in your post. Hang in there kiddo and let us know how it goes.

02-20-2008, 09:03 PM	#4 (permalink)
GailJ Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Ontario Posts: 718	With my ex the highs could be anything rage, boredom, depression, anxiety, even happiness, I think they should reword the term as emotional peaks far out the socially accepted norm. The manic episodes and rapid cycling usually brings on the white rages, delusions, paranoia, and obsessive compusions to do what one normally would never do. Simply the highs are extended periods of a certain emotion which can change/swing abrubtly and without warning or reason into another extended period of another emotion. One p-doc explained it to me that my ex when rapid cycling his brain was processing ten times faster than a normal brain. Could last hours, days, weeks, even months, there is no way to predict when an episode will hit or for how long it will last. To him (my ex) it was normal, and the rest of the world was screwed up. to the rest, his family, friends and employers, it was and still is just plain frightening and dangerous for him and those closest to him. He (my ex still denies his BP) thinks he has only ever had one manic episode, yet I lived through at least four severe episodes with him and he has had at least three more since I divorced him 15yrs ago. He is in the middle of one right now. Very paranoid and seeing conspiracies and spys everywhere, and was suicidal within the past two weeks. It scares me as one of my sons still lives with him and he is capable of being very violent and abusive verbally and pysically when in an episode. My son knows my door is open if he needs it. Anyway thats off point and just letting you know my two cents worth. If you are finally feeling better hippy maybe the meds are doing their job finally, one thing many of us do is get off the meds as soon as we feel better. Usually in extream depression and BP it will inevitably lead to a relapse to get off to quickly. Stick with them Hippy and focus on getting back into a healthy lifestyle. It took a long time for you to find meds that do work for you. Even if it's a pain in the but remembering to take them and on time. You sound really good and I'm glad to see it in your post. Hang in there kiddo and let us know how it goes.