I only slept 3 hours last night so maybe thats why this morning I'm seeing red flags everywhere. I care about you guys so I am sorry but.......hear I go again.
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Originally Posted by gravity  (the real b*tch is that I can handle a beer or three some of the time - this really screws up my thinking - as contradictory as it is, I can't have even one drink - even though I can! I think I'm confusing myself |
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Originally Posted by SF69 And a big yes on that one too! It's those days where I did 'control' my drinking to just a couple of drinks that are really messing with my head.
Fortunately, feeling much, much better this morning. It's going to be a busy day today (a good busy...I finally get my new bowing ball, I pick up my 30 day chip at my home group, and I'm sitting in with a friend's acoustic group for a set at their coffeehouse gig), so hopefully I'll be too busy to listen to that voice in my head if it comes back. |
Handle? Control? Alcohol? These words don't go together for me unless I'm talking about alcohol doing the handling and controlling.
As alcoholics we have lost the ability to control alcohol or as you said gravity.
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Originally Posted by gravity Don't listen to the booze demon - he's full of sh*t. |
A few years back I would drink and think I "got away with it". I was wrong. The first drink leads to a horrible binge for me whether it continues directly from that first drink or it takes a couple of weeks or months of controlling my drinking. I always end up waking to that feeling of dred, gloom, like something bad is going to happen unless I get some booze in me real fast.It's a train wreck every time.
It's not confusing at all. Alcoholism is a progressive disease. It only gets worse, never better.
Sorry I'm being a such buzz kill today. I just can't help it.
Larry.