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Originally Posted by theonlyway  When my girls crashed it, I decided that was a sign from my HP that I needed to move past THAT phase and into a WORKING phase... So, I added meetings, got the Big Book, pulled out more daily meditation books and read, read, read... I also got into an AA/AlAnon retreat and listened and learned. |
Music to my ears C.
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Originally Posted by theonlyway I hit that 30 days yesterday and I'm concerned with this bravado I have. |
Me too. I'm just trying to help from my own personal experience. Bravado at 30 days is something you should FEAR. It has been the source of many a relapse for me. "Self will run riot."
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Originally Posted by theonlyway
I put myself in ONE position already last week (similar to the night NM's room mate had that party and he did SO AWESOME!! ) and yesterday proceeded to commit to another situation for this coming Sunday.
I don't find myself willing to "let go" --I guess is what it is?? ..and realize that as I'm typing this, I had no idea I was going to just say that...
I'm not ready to let go of those friends, those ideas, those places and things... the comfort of it all.
I did well hanging with and having a good time with all my drunk friends for a birthday last week --and was/am so very proud of that. Yesterday I let them talk me into (ok, I agree to...) going out for a bonfire and snowmobiling this coming Sunday. (who on EARTH has bonfires when there is 3' of snow on the ground? -oh, that would be MY drunk friends! lol)
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Originally Posted by theonlyway Now I'm having second thoughts about posting this. I don't want to worry anyone. |
To late C. Several red flags went up as I read your post. I'm glad you decided to post despite your second thoughts so we know what's going on in your life.
I could be wrong but as far as I know no one at any of the meetings I have been to with long term sobriety has drunk friends.
I care about you so please pleeeease be careful. This disease is very patient. It doesn't mind waiting and IT IS WAITING.
Sorry for being a party pooper
PS. Dean is my middle name. My name is Larry ------>alcoholic.