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What fears block me from being entirely ready?
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It sounds really odd now, but at the time I first worked this step, I was really afraid to consider having God remove my defects of character. They might be unhealthy, they might be keeping me from growth, but at least I knew what they were. They were comfortable and familiar, even if they weren't good for me. If I got rid of those character defects, what would be left in their place?? I imagined myself as a piece of swiss cheese, full of holes.
Again, this was a good time to call on others in the program. I talked to my sponsor and to other recovery friends who had worked this step. They assured me that once I became willing to have my Higher Power remove my defects of character, there would be more room for my assets and attributes to prosper.
The truth is, those "holes" were filled up with love and gratitudes. Pure and simple.