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barb dwyer · 02-19-2008, 07:13 PM

Hi everyone...

This is kinda new for me.

Recently, I went to the doctor and took some tests for the Montana mental health Program.

I passed.

In fact - I blew their doors off.
All eyebrows are raised at the local clinic.
Ol' Barb scored off the charts, it seems.
There's a new star at the ... ok I'll drop it... heehee.
(but move over, Jack Nicolson)

*nervous laugh*

Actually - I've 'gotten away' with particular mental health conditions that appear to plague others all my life because I am an artist. What hinders others, acually enhances my own perfromance is what I'm trying to say.

However, when I began to drink like the alcoholic I am, I experienced Depression for the first time.
News to me.
Boy did that ever suck.

I now have a new and true compassion for those who I read talking about it here on the boards, however. Depression was an amazing learning experience for me. I am unspeakably grateful that my own expereience was only as long as it was.

*I* am the one who figured out what was going on and got myself off the lexapro, which had gone from being helpful to being causal ... and I stress that this was individual ... and that in the last three months I've been having a reallhy really hard time of it.
I feel it's important to be educated in your own treatment as much as posible, and to have an ongoing relationship with your healthcare provider.

I have been blessed with this.

I will be scheduling meetings with the in house therapist person, and am going to be taking TOPAMAX to begin.

My eyes tend to glaze over when I read about things like bi polar .... the term is becoming so cliche' my brain just wants to shut off at the hearing of it... so I look forward to reading more of your threads and posts as I learn more about this condition, and sharing with those you you who will share with me in hopes we can learn from each other and handle this together.

So far, it is agreed that I am not actually depressive so much so that makes me a certain 'type' which of course I didn't pay attention to - LOL.

Thanks fof letting me share.
Let's blow the stigma off this stuff.

I mean, if it's okay for the Earth Mother to be Bi Polar ... it's okay for me, too.

02-19-2008, 07:13 PM	#1 (permalink)
barb dwyer same planet...different world Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: butte mt Posts: 10,933 Blog Entries: 7	Funny How We're The Last To Know ... Hi everyone... This is kinda new for me. Recently, I went to the doctor and took some tests for the Montana mental health Program. I passed. In fact - I blew their doors off. All eyebrows are raised at the local clinic. Ol' Barb scored off the charts, it seems. There's a new star at the ... ok I'll drop it... heehee. (but move over, Jack Nicolson) nervous laugh Actually - I've 'gotten away' with particular mental health conditions that appear to plague others all my life because I am an artist. What hinders others, acually enhances my own perfromance is what I'm trying to say. However, when I began to drink like the alcoholic I am, I experienced Depression for the first time. News to me. Boy did that ever suck. I now have a new and true compassion for those who I read talking about it here on the boards, however. Depression was an amazing learning experience for me. I am unspeakably grateful that my own expereience was only as long as it was. I am the one who figured out what was going on and got myself off the lexapro, which had gone from being helpful to being causal ... and I stress that this was individual ... and that in the last three months I've been having a reallhy really hard time of it. I feel it's important to be educated in your own treatment as much as posible, and to have an ongoing relationship with your healthcare provider. I have been blessed with this. I will be scheduling meetings with the in house therapist person, and am going to be taking TOPAMAX to begin. My eyes tend to glaze over when I read about things like bi polar .... the term is becoming so cliche' my brain just wants to shut off at the hearing of it... so I look forward to reading more of your threads and posts as I learn more about this condition, and sharing with those you you who will share with me in hopes we can learn from each other and handle this together. So far, it is agreed that I am not actually depressive so much so that makes me a certain 'type' which of course I didn't pay attention to - LOL. Thanks fof letting me share. Let's blow the stigma off this stuff. I mean, if it's okay for the Earth Mother to be Bi Polar ... it's okay for me, too. __________________ Knowledge is knowing that tomato is a fruit. Wisdom is not putting it in fruit salad.