| Demons of Addiction
Demons of Addiction
I’ve been here before, vowed never to go back,
Thought I knew the signs and would be quick to react
There must be more to this life: I have only existed
All my problems deep inside I had denied and resisted.
Suddenly they appear again staring me right in the face
Arms wide open as if to embrace
The path becomes narrower and then a dead end
Still they summons me towards them trying to befriend
They promise me a life where I will feel no pain
I reach out my arm and slip the needle in my vein
All the ground beneath me starts to give way
Laughter breaks the silence as the demons run away
I try stepping back to where my footing is secure
But instead I am falling – it has all been a lure
With my head in a mess all I can do is to shout
“Please god throw me a rope and help me get out”
Echoes of the laughter spin around in my head
So confused and alone I wish I was dead
Abuse is my past and my constant battle
Will I ever be normal and able to settle?
When your body has been abused in so many ways
Your natural defense just leads you astray
You think that drugs and alcohol are tools to block the pain
Bringing out the warm sunshine and stopping the rain
For some time it’s the answer and it works for a while
But the fun soon stops and I’m back in denial
Once again I find myself visiting hell
Trying to escape reality it was inevitable I fell
How many times must I endure this till I find peace?
Or is it a life sentence with no early release.
|