[DaVinci2]

Been a while since I posted.

I was back on my meds after 4 yrs off (I was only on them once before for panic attacks). Anyways, it seems that me living in Japan under my current living situation is the predominant reason why I have anxiety and depression. These conditions won't change until I move back to Canada (Which may be next year).

Anyways, it seems that I've lost faith in my situation again. The Heath Ledger death is what kinda triggered me to write this, but over the past couple months, my meds stopped helping with the insomnia, which led to increased anxiety and depression (The depression isn't so bad, just a real lack of motivation). I have good days and bad. Some days I wake up and I can't go back to sleep unless I take a Valium. The reason: Every time I close my eyes to sleep, it feels like a shotgun goes off in my head and I wake up.

My doctor told me to up my meds when I feel this way and since Rohypnol is legal in Japan, told me to hold onto to some just in case. I took it once, it helped immensely, but I feared that if I took it daily it would also lose it's effectiveness. I decided it would be an emergency thing only. The taking of Valium on occasion to help with sleep is fine, but not ideal.

Any advice?