Jenna,
I don't see you as hard at all.
The only *possible* thing I see is an obsession over the jerk who screwed you over.
This is not meant to be hard, and I'm sorry if it seems so to you. I would *never* knowingly try to hurt you...and I hope you know that by now...

I simply dispise what the jerk did to you...
And hate seeing you hurt by him.
And I did see you try to figure it out, via another member. Unfortunately, he is not your theif, so, I don't think it works that way. We can't switch the attributes or the justifications of peopls around, much as we like.
And we cannot -- EVER -- trust an active addict.
Please believe that.
Have you read the post, "What addicts do" on the naranon forum?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ddicts-do.html (What Addicts Do)
This is what honesty in an addict looks like, Jenna.
I'm sorry...
Continue to take care of yourself, and know that we care...
Shalom, my friend...shalom!