| aspergers syndrome
I am a 24 yr old male who is over 2 years sober, and I was diagnosed with this at age 19. I have always had a lot of difficulty with social interaction and communication, and have gotten a lot better in my time sober, but feel like I have approached the limits of what sobriety is going to do to help me in this area. I have friends in the 12 step groups I go to, but so many go back to drinking and drugging, and the loneliness is getting unbearable. If I didn't have this disorder I'm sure I would be drinking and drugging right now, because I know I would have a ton of drinking friends to go back to. Basically, I feel very alone most of the week in recovery, except the 1 or 2 meetings where I see some people my own age. I am in college and have no real friends there, I crave alcohol because I think if I could just drink I could go to bars and meet people my own age. I know I have gained a lot in sobriety but I am scared that my life is never going to improve that much socially or relationship wise. I am seeing a counselor right now which is helping, but I still feel just about the lowest I have since I came into 12 step recovery.
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