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shutterbug · 02-03-2008, 11:45 AM

This is for those of you who knew me before I left for the ECT treatments....

-->I'm not sure what it is, but I feel like I'm harder now...
-->I feel like my thoughts and opinions don't seem to make as much sense now as they use to,
:puppetyet i don't usually notice at the time...
-->I feel like ....well....like a witchy person at times and grumpy about things i use to not be.
-->I don't feel as creative or talented as i was before in my work.
-->My gambling issues have definetly gotten much worse. I haven't been since last weekend, but last weekend i gambled away about $500 that i didn't have to lose! I mean, before...$40-$60 was typical and only a few times have I ever gambled away over $100. A week later and I'm still sick about it...that's more than my rent!!
-->My posts have OBVIOUSLY grown in usual length. I mean, there were tons of times before when i wrote really long posts in my journal and in other peeps threads, but now it seems nearly EVERY time!

This is me asking for TOTALY HONESTY in what any of you have noticed about me since i've been back?? Don't be afraid of hurting my feelings. I'd much rather hear something from you guys than others....and the sooner the better so I can work of fixing things.

Thanks

Jenna

02-03-2008, 11:45 AM	#1 (permalink)
shutterbug A picture's worth a 1000 words Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: With any luck, I'm lost in a view finder Posts: 2,928	Do I seem "different" since I've been back? This is for those of you who knew me before I left for the ECT treatments.... -->I'm not sure what it is, but I feel like I'm harder now... -->I feel like my thoughts and opinions don't seem to make as much sense now as they use to, :puppetyet i don't usually notice at the time... -->I feel like ....well....like a witchy person at times and grumpy about things i use to not be. -->I don't feel as creative or talented as i was before in my work. -->My gambling issues have definetly gotten much worse. I haven't been since last weekend, but last weekend i gambled away about $500 that i didn't have to lose! I mean, before...$40-$60 was typical and only a few times have I ever gambled away over $100. A week later and I'm still sick about it...that's more than my rent!! -->My posts have OBVIOUSLY grown in usual length. I mean, there were tons of times before when i wrote really long posts in my journal and in other peeps threads, but now it seems nearly EVERY time! This is me asking for TOTALY HONESTY in what any of you have noticed about me since i've been back?? Don't be afraid of hurting my feelings. I'd much rather hear something from you guys than others....and the sooner the better so I can work of fixing things. Thanks Jenna __________________ I'M FINE!! Fanatically Insecure Neuratic & Emotional Bipolar/Depression support: 1-800-950-NAMI(6264).