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I continue my path of misery. My housemate is a nightmare to live with. She does nothing in terms of housework unless i initiate things. She lies constantly about the most silly things; i think she is just a compulsive liar.
Not long now til i fly out of state to move in with my girlfriend and I think my housemate is jealous.
The old me would take advantage of the situation and scam her for everything she has, however I have chnged my life and cn no longer do that.
It's 8 minutes til 1 in the morning and we're drinkg beer and listening to Lou Reed's 'Heroin'.
F#$k I'm a bad addict. And have been for many years. I had a lot of clean time up and know i can do it again. I just need help.
Tomorrow we're ringing to find the nearest GROW groups, SMART recovery and NA meetings.
I have to keep occupied. The suboxone has the heroin addiction well ubder control, but my mental health in general, is all over the place.
I take my meds everyday, and feel better for it but sometimes i wish i was dead. I don't wanna kill myself (tried that too many times; God won't let me die),
Anyone feel the same? If so, let's chat because I need someone to relate to.
Psychiatrists and psychologists are all well and good but I need to speak to people who have actually been where I've been so we can help eah other get thru it.
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