Hi guys, feeling kind of blah tonight. I been so stressed the past few days. Which I really hate when I'm newly sober again. But i made it through day 12 sober.
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Originally Posted by alberta  Wow! That really spoke to me.
I'm on day one (again!) Over the past couple of years I've had long sober periods, punctuated with short, but fairly "wet" ones. The shortest sobriety I had was 2 months. That was the last one, and the only one that I did with AA. Odd, eh? Part of it was the never drinking again bit. Thanksgiving rolls around and that red wine was so civilized.... and here I am again.
The AA experience was good in some ways (dug having a place to go) but I honestly cannot relate to the Big Book! :-/ (Hope I don't offend anyone) It just doesn't describe me really and the language is, well, old-fashioned. Someone mentioned the NA book and I just read parts here and, while it does say the same things, it says them in a way that I "get." Problem is, I don't use drugs...
Then there is ACA....which is really where my core issue is. I come from a long line of Alcoholics and Children of them...and I am hopelessly codependent. (i.e., I can't let go of people even if they are unhealthy...like when I wasn't drinking my drinking friends were still wrapping their lips around bottles of booze in MY HOUSE (coming over with it) and I couldn't say "get that outta here." I just sat and felt angry and like drinking!!)
Soo where to go, who to be ... :-) Here is a good start.
Thanks for listening.
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Alberta- I know what you mean about the big book. It is hard to understand sometimes. There is a 4th addition out now with newer stories. Also have you read the "Living Sober" book? Or the AA grapevine magazine. Here's the link to the Grapevine:
AA Grapevine.org
Congratulations on starting the journey again. Keep reading and posting on here.
Glad to see you back TOW. I can relate to the "don't likes". I have them all the time. But i have to remember the biggest "don't like i had was being all alone and drinking by self everyday. I don't want to live that way any more.
Barb