((((((((( dotcom))))))))) I feel so sad for you dotcom, I am much older than you, but I , too, am not exempt from such feelings . As I am newly sober , I have yet to experience a " healthy " relationship. I returned to toxic situations time and time again.
Just think , love, at 19, and clean, the world is at your feet !
When you are feeling stronger , you will be able to make healthy choices for yourself . imagine , to have a wonderful relationship, that is trusting and healthy , and Nurturing ! You have all that before you !
Good Luck girl,
lilya : I love reading your posts , you are so wise , and articulate , you have helped me a great deal
HUGX
Lee