[caraway]

Hi hippy, you've described just how I felt when my children were young (and for much of my life) and that tremendous effort of trying to look ok when leaving the house. These days I feel much better, not sure entirely why but I'm sure the prozac I'm taking really helps me keep going. I wish I could help you but the best thing I can think of suggesting is to try and get some anti d's that work for you. (I don't think prozac was around when my children were young and I once got some antidepressants that made me feel even heavier. I remember going to bed and when I got up, my legs gave way beneath me! I was scared, I just couldn't function at all so I flushed the rest down the toilet!).

Just try and keep going, I'll be thinking of you.