((Hippy))
It's hard, I know...
Try doing something for you; just for you. Something that is positive and healthy; that will give you a reason to smile or feel just a bit better about yourself.
Then, make yourself a list of what needs to be done. A list really helps, because, you can see progress as you check it off. Even if the progress is slow going, it still is progress, right?
I'm sorry you're feeling so poorly... Please do try to take care of yourself each day, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. It makes a difference for me. I know it will for you, even as I recognize how difficult it is to do...
Keep posting. We care...
Shalom!