QT, don't feel alone. I kicked exAh out 1.5 years ago and despite all my strength and all my progress, at times I'm still a spastic, twitching codie. I have been feeling guilty cause six-figure making exAH has gotten himself into so much debt that he's totally screwed. It's hard for us to stay off the codie sauce, but at least we can recognize our insanity and try to get back on the wagon again.
