Originally Posted by
queenteree 
When will I ever learn??????
I heard someone say in a meeting recently that denial is a shock absorber for the soul. We only get to see what we are able to process at the time. Your AH may have some denial issues going on, but so don't we all, especially those of us in long term relationship[s with A's. Many times we have used denial positively, as in choosing compassion rather than severance and harshness.
In a round about way, what I'm saying is that you will get what you are ready to get, not more. You are getting clearer daily. Today, for whatever reasons, you feel like you got manipulated by him and you are mad at yourself for allowing that to happen. Thats a step along your way to another perspective. N ext time you will be able to carry this awareness forth and catch the bs before you get swept along with it.
Dont be hard on yourself. Keep your eyes and inner ears open. Have a good day!