Hi guys... well some things have transpired in the last week. His appointment got moved up to next Tuesday. He started researching yesterday the different AD's and Mood Stabilizers. He is sussing out his cycles. It is all coming to a head now and he his being faced with some realities that he has pushed aside for many years. I'm very proud of him to be taking this step as this is one huge step to take!
In the meantime, I am looking after myself..... I actually started on zoloft... and I'm finding that it is helping me already! Unfortunately, it's a borrowed script as I don't have health insurance, so I'll have to see what happens in a month from now.
I do post on the family and friends forum, that place is a life saver for codies....
He has asked me to really be there for him between now and Tuesday with going round and round with it all.... but what he also did say, which I thought was very considerate, was.... if you find that it is getting in the way with your own life... and it's getting to be too much to tell him. And I replied with... yes... I will. AND I will! I am paying attention to my own self and how I am reacting... and I'm forcing myself to not be wrapped up in his drama... it's not easy to do by any means. But it's also forcing me to look at my own life and self.
I feel like I'm not making sense, maybe I wasn't ready to respond.... ?