 How do I deal with unwanted freedom?
1st post. Alcoholism and my own personal f@%#edupness and mental illness in that order have put my marraige on life-support. Im a mentally ill alcoholic. I'm not only a near hopeless alcoholic, I also suffer from depression, anxiety/panic disorder. There's times unwanted voices and/or music is in my head. The alcohol made the voices and music stop, at least, but I now know that I must deal with them through legal drugs. When it comes right down to it, though, alcoholism is the key factor in my demise, without it, my wife wouldn't have kicked my asss outta the house
So here I stand, in a trial seperation, feeling alone and depressed, having to find another place to live and wondering how I can deal with being on my own. I worry that if I am by myself I will self-destruct turning to alcohol again with nobody around to hide it from. At least when I'm home or at the wacky shack I cannot openly relapse. On my own I'm free to be a drunken sod as long as I don't try to drive anywhere. And I see myself being all too content with sitting alone in a room or a one bedroom apartment, drinking myself into momentarily sweet oblivion.
How do you control your own appetites when it's just you when not at work? Any advice will be appreciated.
IceWolf
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